Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Monday, December 14, 2009

Facebook Quiz #1

Okay I’ve been at a complete loss lately as to what to post(hence no posts). So I found some fun Facebook Quizzes over at one of my favorite blogs “A Thousand Words” since I am nothing but a dork I decided to borrow them.

Basic Info
Do you like to cook?: Sometimes
Do you eat out more often than you cook?: if I can
Do you like sports?: Heck yes
How do you spend your free time?: on the internet or reading
What state are you from?: Washington

Favorites
soda?: Club soda (yes I do realize I’m a freak)
kind of cooked fish?: Salmon I guess?
activity to do with your kids?: depends on the day
thing you like to do alone?: read, write, surf the net
thing you like to do with your loved one?: nothing

Have you Ever
been camping?: yes
sucked helium from a balloon?: yup
walked around your house naked?: sure a long time ago
wanted to live in another country?: hell yeah. All the time. I blame my Canadian blood
been banned from somewhere?: not that I’m aware of

Do you
lie or always tell the truth?: Try to always tell the truth
have a college degree?: working on it
have a lot of friends on your facebook?: I guess you could say that…
grow your own vegetables?: sure do
feel your are a creative person?: depends on in what way you mean? Writing yes. Art? No

What is
your mother like?: Insane, like totally insane in the not good way
your father like?: Fun to be around most of the time
your motto?: Always do what you can.
your religion?: mixed
something you couldn't do as a child that you do now?: tons of things

This/That
Crosswords or Word Search?: Word Search
Are you passive or aggressive?: depends on the situation
Play in the snow or Stay inside and drink cocoa?: play in the snow. until someone starts to cry. Than it sucks.
Better to be rich and alone or poor with lots of love?: Uh…it’s a toss up.
OMG or WTF?: WTF OMG!

Relationships
On a first date, what would make you leave early?: idiocy and uncomfortableness I guess
Do you kiss on the first date?: uh well I don’t know I’ve only been on a few first dates
How old were you when you first dated?: 16
Would you date someone that used to do drugs?: yeah
Would you care if your significant other went to a strip club?: depends I guess…

Finish...
If I had to spend $1000 in one day I'd....: not know where to start.
I usually shop at...: the feed store
My biggest concern right now is....: a lot of things but probably my car
I'm so happy that....: it stopped snowing
I am totally craving a....: snickers

Firsts
Halloween?: I think it was a bee?
time you bought a computer?: four years ago
text today?: I don’t think I want to repeat it.
person you talked to today?: Some random person at my college
person you called today on the phone?: see above

Lasts
time you caught someone lying?: uh…I don’t remember
time you went shopping?: Saturday. It was hell.
time you flew in a plane?: November 21st, 2008 I think? It was after I went to Burbank
trip you took?: Vancouver, April 2009
time you slept on the floor?: This summer

Friday, July 10, 2009

So, another exciting season begins.

Tuesday was the opening night of pea season. This meant a couple of things- 1) its my 4th season overall, 2) its my 3rd season right seating(driving alone), and 3) that I have to train freshies(first year drivers).

Now points 1 & 2 don’t have much bearing on the first couple days aside from the fact I am the *senior* driver on the crew. I have the unique pleasure of having my lovely foreman from last season and on Tuesday night I made it clear to him that I had *CHOOSEN* his crew over everyone else’s because I like and respect him as a foreman and would prefer to be with him.

Point 3 has been the one that has been driving me most insane as we are on a second shutdown night tonight(last night was my night off but the crew ended up not running). Which means that I will have trained drivers on Tuesday and Wednesday nights and go back tomorrow and have to RETRAIN them again.


Now with the driver I had Tuesday night that will be fine. I had him left seating for about an hour before I let him drive and he caught on very quickly to driving. He was good enough that I felt comfortable booting him out of my machine and into his own machine(even though we had and continue to have only 2 machines) after about 3 hours. He did swimmingly well and I was quite proud of him.

I was actually comfortable enough that I felt okay going out and snapping some video of the peas falling off the podder chain into the bin while he drove:






The driver I trained Wednesday night was a little different. He was much slower to catch on(never really did actually) and really frustrated me. I had him left seat with me while I helped to finish up a field and even had him drive a little but he was very nervous and didn’t fully seem to listen to me or my instructions (I.E.- “Now you go to full throttle, that’s the rabbit”) . I demonstrated how to open a field, and dump and everything I could.

Then I put him in the driver’s seat and left seated with him coaching him gently through everything, prompting and guiding. I finally got up and went out on the catwalk for a while because he just was NOT getting it and I thought maybe if I got out of his hair he would have it click. Nope. So back into the left seat for another round of coaching and prompting, then down to the crew truck to help the foreman for a while.

As I was trial by fire’ing the driver he not once, not twice but at least 3 times couldn’t remember how to engage the harvester(pull up on the GIANT yellow knob) or how to idle down. I was in and out of the machine a few times but the last time I came back in, I asked him why he hadn’t idled down while waiting for the truck to pull up. He points to a button(not the throttle that is labeled ‘throttle’ and goes “well I was pushing THAT one and it has a rabbit and turtle on it” turns out he’d adjusted his reel speed(how fast the picking reel that pulls the peas in spins) down into the 150’s range(it was supposed to be up at 200RPM). I took over for a while, getting the reel speed back up and finishing the field(we were almost done).

Needless to say I am really hoping that tomorrow when we go in(as right now its about 90% chance we ARE working) that we have the Tuesday drivers.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Ducks, ducks everywhere, yet not a duck to spare

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    Today saw the arrival of two new ducklings to the poultry clan. They join the other two ducklings who are already chilling in the cage with the chicks and are yet un-named. So this will bring us to a total of 6 ducks.

4 Blue Swedish

1 Runner(seriously he needs some therapy)

and a Rouen.

 

Ought to be an interesting mix.

 

Neither of the older two ducks are named as nothing has quite seemed right(even though I’ve had the older swede for almost a year now) so any suggestions are welcome.

 

Oh and if you recall last year about this time:

 

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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Life’s little Ironies

So today in English class the Professor of DOOM! handed back our Personal Essays that we wrote approximately 3 weeks ago now.  When I’d originally gotten mine back I had FREAKED out because of how many changes and edits the Prof wanted. Then I spent a whole weekend editing and ripping my hair out and re-editing, and revising until it was ‘perfect’.

 

Today when he handed it back he looked at me and asked:

PoD: “So have you ever been published?”
me: “Uhm, no, no I have not. I’ve submitted but never been published.”
PoD: “Oh. Well you should change to an English Major. You’re good at this”

me: o..0 “Uh…Okay, sure whatever.”

 

I felt like being all “yes, I’ve been published and that is totally why I am in this REMEDIAL English(okay, actually I am taking it by choice as I could have tested out of it but decided not to) class.

 

Was a little peeved that the PoD didn’t seem to notice my comment about the book we are reading that flat out called the book despicable. Though it may have just been the cloak and dagger I used to disguise it when I was jabbing it into his precious title.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Where has the week gone?

I don’t know about you but for me this week has just flown by.  Monday was pretty much a waste as I was still dead on my feet from Saturday and then today I was talking to my dad and he was asking about my plans for tomorrow night. When I told him I didn’t have any he kindly reminded me that it was the first Friday and that I’d mentioned we had our parenting group.  That made me realize that it was *gasp* Thursday and I didn’t even do ANYTHING productive this week.

 

I think that I decided that in April I will be going to Vancouver for a ‘me weekend’ and going to the Con up there even if no one really likes it because darn it, I deserve to have some fun.

Was hired today by my Uncle to do some warehouse work for him, and I now get to spend the next month and a half learning all about Fishing reels, rods, crab traps and assorted other sporting goods- ought to be a fun time.

Got CanadiTom some new voices and maps and am now(fruitlessly) trying to convince him that I really do live at my house. He seems to think that I have moved since I re-taught him my address this morning.  Though he now has some fun new voices(a new Canadian, and Darth Vader among them).

I’ve spent a lot of time lately playing with the camera and taking just a million shots so that I can improve my familiarity with it…

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Just a quick update

I just wanted to let you all know that yes, I am still alive. I hope to be blogging more now that the 2009 CLE/CWS is over and done(yesterday).


As far as I know preliminary data suggests that overall everything went well. The pre-registration number was around 680 as of Wednesday so I’m sure that we had more then that but I haven’t heard a final count yet.


Overall I enjoyed teaching again this year though my advanced class was a bit difficult. I had one of those students who decided that everything I taught was wrong and that it was *their* job to inform the others of the error of my ways.

I was glancing at my searches and had a few rather interesting/funny/what the heck ones jump out at me from the last couple months.

  • uncensored cg gallery from mama club
  • weather in resloute
  • what is something slippery / something slippery
  • joe biden powerpoint
  • agoat the bomber part 1
  • what is a proverbial horse / proverbial horse

The oddest search term that led to my blog has GOT to be:

  • watersink uk so named as water sinks through ground walk

 

Hope that all of you are doing well, and I hope to be back with in a few days with some new photos that I’ve been playing with.

Just to give you a preview of what you’ll see:

 

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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Politics- Sarah Palin

Thus far I haven't discussed much of my thoughts, feelings and emotions regarding the current Political season. After reading THIS post however I wanted to take my turn at the plate.

Now I will concede that I am not the most knowledgeable voter but I'm learning as much as I can. This is my first Presidential and Gubernatorial races in which I am old enough to vote.  I do not vote one side of the fence or the other, as I don't fully embrace either parties ideals at the moment.

Now that isn't to say I don't have very strong feelings regarding certain prominent political figures.

Sarah Palin- As a mother and a woman I am deeply offended by her.

See I'm the product of an abstinence only Sex Ed system which she supports strongly. I went through 3+ years of Sex Ed, and took the notes, and the tests and sat and paid rapt attention to the teacher in class sure. Now lets look where all that got me- I became a young unwed teenage mother with a 'special needs'* child.

As I sat watching her acceptance speech at the RNC and I saw the way she was presenting her family it really bugged me. I can understand that Trig is special to her(as any child should be) but I felt that it was wrong of her to use him as a pawn in her speech.

I also have made it no secret that I live in the country. Now while I don't personally have my hunting license, I know plenty of people who do. I support both the right to own and use(safely) firearms. However I also think that we should protect and preserve some of our natural resources- such as the Artic National Wildlife Refuge. I realize that we need to look for alternative supplies of fuel but there has to be a way aside from drilling in the pristine beauty of Alaska.

Now I can't really say much about her foreign relations stuff as I haven't much experience in that area myself. I do however try to stay at least on top of what is going on around the world.

I realize that I have just covered one of the four players on the national stage(and don't even get me started on our screwy Gubernatorial race) and promise that over the next few days as I catch up with last nights debate(I had class) I will write a post for each of the other 3.

*Kenzie does NOT have Downs or some of the other high need 'special needs' but due to her motor, speech and physical delays has been classed as 'special needs' by her pediatrician.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I'm Going to Burbank

So after much debate, discussion and deep thought, I have finally decided on what to get myself for my 21st birthday.

I AM attending the 2008 Creation Burbank SG Convention.

I do not care wether anyone likes it or not. My family thinks its rather odd. They've 'geek danced' me into oblivion and continue to make fun of me but hey, I'm who I am and I like me.

So I already reserved a room, now I just have to arrange two sets of flights(one from Seattle to Burbank and the other from Denver to Burbank), and buy the tickets and various photo opportunities. I can't wait! Its going to be a blast.

This also means that I am now re-scheduling my birthday from 8/10 to somewhere between 11/21 and 11/23.

Though I will still be going on 8/12 and getting my shiny horizontal drivers license.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

A couple recent snap shots

Since the weather was so nice yesterday and today we have had a lot of opportunity to be outside enjoying the sunshine. I have been snapping pictures left and right. Most of them have been blahish but I had 2 that just blew me away. So I thought I'd share them in all their UNEDITED glory.

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Rose

 

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Marigold

 

Now for some of the other pictures I snapped:

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The tractor is just sitting there NOT running(it ran out of gas)

A series I've nicknamed "Run, run as fast as you can!"

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Anybody happen to have a can of Gremlin out handy?

I have recently come to the conclusion I either need to stop pissing off higher powers, OR buy some stock in "Gremlin Out".

In the last several weeks/months, nothing has really gone my way, from Kenzie's pediatrician leaving, to my car accident, to the summer job. Now add my car gremlin to the lengthy list, and you have my current issue.

So as you may remember about 2 months ago I had some car problems that resulted in my car needing its radiator replaced. Okay, fine, I replaced it. Now fast forward to yesterday. I get in my car to drive to town, and I got about 2 miles down the road when I noticed a blinking light on the dashboard of doom. I glance down and mutter softly under my breath because its THAT light, the 'check radiator' light. Okay no big deal, I'll check it later since you can't while it's hot. So I go to town, and go home, and leave the car to sit for the rest of the day, forgetting about the 'check radiator' light. That is until last evening when I got in and headed back to town to go to the library to get some work done. I got to again about 2 miles from home and again the light comes on. Okay, this is getting suspiscious. *makes mental note* Got to the library was there for about 2 hours working, and then they closed I head out and got in my car and headed home, and again the light comes on.

Okay so its 9pm and I can't call the mechanic's shop NOW, because they just aren't there. So this morning after getting up bright and early to do chores and other assorted sundry tasks around the farm, I get on the phone to our family mechanic. I explain the problem, and remind him that just 2 months ago he replaced the whole darn thing so I'm not too happy at this point. He says he can squeeze it in at 1 o'clock.  Okay that works.

So I drove up, and dropped the car off, the light blinking intermittently at me the whole drive up. While there I got a lecture on the dangers of not changing your oil(apparently I was about 4,000 miles overdue) and then was sent home to await the car's fate.

10 minutes ago the phone rings and who is it on the phone? The mechanics, they had located the source of my 'check radiator' light, apparently my WATER PUMP is leaking. One of the only 2 parts they did NOT replace when they replaced the radiator. *sighs* So now I am face with a choice- do I bring the car home, have it sit here, and not drive it for several weeks until I can get the money together to pay for it to be repaired, or do I have them repair it now and pay it as I get the money over the next couple weeks with the summer job.

I'd like to buy some of that stock now ;)

Monday, June 23, 2008

The 3 Legged Goat

I’d settled in to watch Kavan’s {smith} new movie and was 3/4’s of the way through when the family came in FREAKING out. Okay, okay, I’ll get up, what is it?

So they’d gone out to feed the wee goats their last bottle and one was hobbling around with 3 count them 3 legs. So what do they do? They assume that said goat has accidentally dismembered itself and that they MUST freak out.

I walk outside spend a moment and a half checking the area, NOPE! No leg. Okay onto the goat. Hmm thats rather odd, has there ALWAYS been a foot where your left ear belongs? No? Okay! So pick the wee kid up, gently remove the leg from its position across the back of her neck, and VOILA! a 4 legged goat. *shakes head* Family!

The kid is just fine today not having sustained any noticeable damage from the 'accident' yesterday.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Something I learned to do yesterday

Make two-tone Jell-O!!!

Step 1: Start with Jell-O pack 1

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Step 2: Boil 2 Cups water

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Step 3: Empty Contents of Package into Bowl

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Step 4: Wait for water to boil

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Step 4a: Be bored Make designs on Jell-O (OPTIONAL)

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Step 5: Add 2 cups boiling water to Powder

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Step 5a: Stir:

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Step 6: Stir in 2 cups cold water:

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Step 7: Refigerate 2 and a half hours or until firm BUT tacky

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Step 8: Repeat Steps 1-5 with Jell-O Pack #2

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Step 9: Pull out Cooled Jell-O

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Step 10: Pour Second Jell-O mix slowly and carefully over 1st:

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Step 11: Cool 4 hours, then remove and assume you have failed as the Jell-O appears purple(apparently I lost my color lessons)

Serve:

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Friday, June 20, 2008

Reason #274 you don't leave toddlers alone....

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You should NEVER EVER EVER walk away from a toddler who has a red marker and paper on which to color. She will invariably eat the marker and make it look like she is bleeding, thus freaking you out.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

About the "Dead Body Incident"

Okay since I have had a couple of you ask about the "Dead Body Incident" I figured I'd post the story here.

**Disclaimer- Names have been changed to protect the innocent(and the not so innocent)**

**Secondly- THERE WAS NO DEAD BODY!**

**Thirdly- at the time I nearly got fired over this as I was being a 'liability'**

A little history- I worked the last two summers for a company running pea harvesters. I work nights, and they are long and boring.  Therefore lots, and lots of strange things happen.

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So we had been off work for several nights when we finally got the call that we'd be running again. So went out to the fields our 'day' crew was in to finish them up before moving onto the new field. 

We got all done, and somehow I ended up in front machine, which like NEVER happened, ever. So we get to our new field and its dark, and I'm driving along opening the field(driving along the edge harvesting) and procedure calls for someone to be walking in front of me which our foreman is doing. Well suddenly he stops me has me shut down my machine, and just QUIT, and runs off. I'm sitting, and sitting, and sitting and my phone rings and its the ex, I'm bored so I answer, you know cause its like 11pm, and there is nothing better to do. So finally after like FOREVER of sitting there I got annoyed(because seriously it was boring.) so I clicked 'mute' on my phone so I could get on the radio and ask the 'boys'(i was one of 2 girls on night shift, and the ONLY girl that night working), what was going on.

Apparently my 'mute' didn't work, so I asked the boys, and one of them came back with, "OH yeah, there's like a dead body in our field, means we're going to have to go home early I guess", so not believing them(and still thinking that the phone was on mute), I was all 'oh yeah sure, guess, that Sucks!' and hearing the sarcasm in my voice the kid was all 'well i saw Joe* go running by and he told me! so its got to be true' I was all whatever, and went back to my phone conversation, not realizing the ex had heard the WHOLE exchange.

So he is suddenly all 'did i hear something about a dead body?', and I was all (jokingly of course) 'oh yeah, the guys said that Joe said that bestard** found a body' next thing I know, idiot is hanging up on me and then there's like a GAZZILLION guys from the company showing up in OUR field. well turns out idiot went and asked our mechanic guy, who asked our other mechanic guy who was bored, who decided to drive out and call the shop boss, and thus get ME in trouble.

So I totally got MY ass chewed out by foreman, and then the helper, came up and I was all 'so i guess i'm in shit aye?' and he was all 'nah he thought it was funny' whatever!

Turns out the whole reason everyone was running around like crazy we were supposed to 'spot cut'(only cut portions) of this field and the foreman thought that we'd missed the cut off.

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Hope this settles everyone's curiosity about the "Dead body Incident"! Leave any further questions in the comments section, and I'll answer them!

100 Things: the Divided List

So in today's 100 things I'm going to be a bit different. Instead of a list of 10 things on 1 topic, I am going to cover 3 topics.

5 Things I can do that I wish I couldn't, 4 Things I wish I COULD do, and the WORST job ever.

 

5 Things I can do that I wish I couldn't:

1) My jaw is double jointed on the Left side, and is constantly popping, cracking, and generally being a nuisance. I therefore wish either both sides were double jointed(Seriously just one side WTF?!) or neither!

2) I can CORRECTLY hold down a squirming, wiggly infant/toddler while doctors place a catheter in her to extract urine.

3) I can also hold down a toddler while they draw blood from her arm while she is screaming and flailing. The nurses were in awe of this skill yesterday during our 'emergency' doctors appointment.

4) I can identify, and fix most minor problems in a small tractor engine. Also some large tractors too.

5) I know several ways to easily, and quickly dispose of bodies. My favorite saying used to be- "I got a shovel, and my neighbors 20 acres, don't trifle with me"

 

4 Things I wish I COULD Do:

1) I wish I could be coordinated enough to climb things, and NOT get hurt. It seems like everytime I climb something, I end up hurt. This is why I was freaked the frell out yesterday when I was up on that ladder in the thunderstorm, playing with the extension cord that powers the barn. Seriously Electricity+Thunderstorm+Ladder+Me = T R O U B L E

2) I wish I could speak my mind to people when they are doing something I don't agree with. Instead I usually store it away, and stew over it until later, and then get angry, but never say anything.

3) I wish I could kick some sense into my Ex and make him realize that I am NOT the person he thinks I am. Namely I am NOT a Lesbian Whore.  Thank. You. Very. Much!

4) I wish I could show emotion. I seriously suck at expressing emotions. I may be a girl, and I may have a crapload of estrogen at my disposal, but I cannot bring myself to cry, even over most 'chick flicks'.

Finally: The WORST Job I've Ever Held:

1) Pea Viner Operator. I hate it, yet I keep going back. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm going back for a 3rd summer this year even after last years "Dead Body Incident" *shakes head at the memory*

Saturday, June 7, 2008

100 things, P1

Blog

Since this is my 200th post, I wanted to do something special. Being unable to be original I thought I'd do a 100 things list. To make it more manageable, and readable, I will break it down into 10 sections of 10. If there's something you'd like to see me do a section about(be it the goats, my former life as a student/businesswoman/farmer or whatever) just let me know!

So without further ado here is part 1: Facts about me.

1) My first and middle names were given to me after friends of my mothers. I hate and despise my first name as no one can ever say it right, unless they are familar with Greek and Trojan Mythos.

2) On that same note, my first name is NOT contrary to popular belief spelled with a "C" I was the unfortunate lout who got saddled with a "K". I was never able to have personalized pencils, pens and other such trinkets in school.

3) I have worn glasses for almost 13 years now. I prefer glasses to contacts as it just freaks me out to stick my finger in my eyes.

4) I can understand at least 7 different 'ologies'- Endocrinology, Opthamology, Cardiology, Urology, Audiology, Hematology, and now the basic Neurology

5) I grew up across the street from my Elementary school, until we moved before the start of 7th grade. I hated it as our house was a horrid color(puke green).

6) I have always loved animals, this started very very young, as my grandparents babysat me everyday until I was 3 and we were frequent visitors at the zoo.

7) I still have my baby blanket. I cannot travel without it. Even if it just stays in the bag it HAS to go with me on long trips.

8) I may be a bit obsessive about a lot of things, cleaning is NOT one of them. My room looks like I have a tornado living in here.

9) I sleep in a queen size bed, but I can ONLY sleep in half of it. I cannot sleep near the wall, it freaks me the crap out. So I pile all my pillows and such on that side.

10) I MUST have my Boppy to sleep, I became addicted to sleeping with it while we were breastfeeding, and have yet to give it up. It works way better than a regular pillow anyway.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

My feelings about the situation in which we find ourselves

Today's post will be a follow up of sorts to yesterdays post.

I received the phone call from the pediatrician explaining WHY the schedule had been bumped up, and it is much as had been feared.

She is leaving her practice.

Now that may not seem a big deal to most people out there but let me explain something. I HATE most pediatricians(I'll spare you the down and dirty details as to why for now). So for me to not only take Kenzie to one, but to also fully switch 100% over(from a family practice) is NOT like me. I have raved in the past about our pediatrician, and all of it still stands true. Sadly she is moving her practice to a city that is much too far to drive for 'routine care' visits, about an hour and a half one way, so I can't follow her. *sighs*

My feelings about this whole thing are rather mixed.

~ I feel rather like I 'broke' kenzie in the fact that she has had numerous 'issues' since birth, and has seen not 1 or 2 but this will be her 5th 'ologist'

She has seen:

* Urologist * Cardiologist * Opthamologist  * Audiologist

~ I 'know' that I did NOT 'break' her but try rationalizing that to my single parent brain in which I am the one who provides all her care, and food, and such. I have no one else to blame the 'issues' on.

~ I feel kind of cold and alone, as I cannot make her father aware of the issues that she has or it becomes an 'oh woe is me' festival, in which the world must revolve around him and how screwed up his life is because Kenzie is 'broken'(doesn't help with my issues).

~ I tend to bottle my feelings until the point at which they 'explode' and I end up spending hours on the phone to my BFF Tiff, bawling my eyes out over how 'horrid' of a parent I am.

~ If I try and discuss any of the 'issues' with my family, I continually hear 'Oh she's young she'll just grow out of it', or 'Well why aren't you doing ____ or ____?' or 'You MUST of done SOMETHING to cause this, after all YOU put her into speech therapy'

~Some days I just want to curl up in a burrow and hide from the world for fear of another 'issue' cropping up and forcing me to learn about another 'ology'.

~ I wish I could wave a magic wand make my baby all better, and not have to go through another medical procedure.

~ Having had MRI's myself, I know that they are not 'painful' I'm just worried about how I'll control a toddler whilst she is having her BRAIN scanned.

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Having said all these things do let me say this one-

I KNOW ITS NOT MY FAULT!

Sadly this doesn't help all the time, and while I have been preparing for hearing the words spoken(Your daughter needs an MRI, and to see a Neurologist) I had not been prepared for them so soon. Something about my favorite person on the planet is leaving, and wants to tie up all the 'loose ends' before she does so.

All your kind words have meant a lot to me, and I hold them near and dear as they help to buoy my spirits as we enter this, new phase of our medical journey. Hopefully this time the doctor won't give me a hard time about being 'smarter than their resident'.

Now if you'll excuse me I'm off to research Neurologists and pick the best one for my daughter.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

In Which I reveal all

So the past week has been very long and trying for me, as a parent and as a person. Kenzie has been undergoing speech therapy since the middle of February having been diagnosed at the end of January, with a 'speech delay'.

We've gone in weekly for her appointments, been doing all the 'homework' that was required, and making some progress. Alas, that has not been enough apparently. We now have to go down sometime next month, and see a Neurologist, and have an MRI preformed at Children's Hospital.

I'll back up a minute and explain. See back in late March/early April Kenzie went into see our pediatrician, about some unrelated thing.  While we were there, we discussed her speech therapy, and the physical therapy, and the newest thing we had noticed which was a 'slight' tremor to her muscles. The pediatrician was concerned but not overly so, suggesting that we watch it, and re-convene in July, to re-check, and discuss at that point possibly having a Neurology consult done. She also at that time expressed interest in having a Occupational Therapy assessment done when we got the chance.

Fast forward now to last week. Wednesday we were at speech therapy, and I asked the therapist about the OT referral we had received as here it was a full month and a half later, and it still hadn't happened. This conversation turned into discussion of the Neuro consult possibility before we left. 

Skip to the next day around noon. My phone rings, and I glance at the display, and see that it is the pediatrician's office calling us. I pick up to the very lovely voice of our AWESOME nurse whom I love. She was calling to inform me that they were going ahead with the consult referral, and just wanted to give me a heads up so that when the Neurologist's office called me I wasn't totally shocked(You mean like I am right now?!).

Now skip to today. We arrived for ST, and PT, at our usual time, went and did our thing. While we were there I casually brought up my conversation with the Ped's nurse last week. I was curious if they had, had a 'discussion'* with the Pedi at some point the prior week, thus bringing about the phone call. They both answered in the negative that they had NOT had a discussion with the Ped; BUT they both felt very strongly that we should proceed with the consult as she is not making 'marked' progress and is still occasionally exhibiting signs of a slight tremor.

So as it stands right now, at our PT, ST, and Pediatrician's recommendation we are going in July at some point(date TBD) to see a neurologist, and have an MRI preformed. Looking for what? Nobody quite knows(this is the answer I continually get), so its basically a crap shoot as to wether or not we 'find' anything. I will keep you updated.

* Our Pediatrician and our speech therapist/physical therapist all share a building and a lunch room, all have freely admitted to having 'discussions' about Kenzie over lunch. Which honestly freaks me out a little, because seriously, don't y'all have something better to talk about like say the weather?

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Introducing "Carter"

The last kid of the 2008 kidding season has officially hit the ground as of Sunday June 1st.

She is for the moment, un-named(as I don't get to name her *sighs*). I however have to have SOMETHING to refer to her as. So I have dubbed her Carter. She is constantly babbling(aka crying, and fussing) over something.

Frankly all I hear is 'maaaah, maaaaaaaaah! mah!' all frickin day long. If I still had my sling I'd be doing the following with her:

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Takes baby wearing to a WHOLE new level!

But sadly I gave away the kicking awesome sling to a friend of mine who had a baby and refuse to spend money on one for GOATS.

Since this post is already quite long and wordy, we'll get to the REAL reason your here. The kid.

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Carter was a single kid hence the lonely look

 

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Carter weighed in at about 6 lbs which was surprising because she was a single, and singles usually weigh a wee bit more than say twins or triplets.  

Monday, June 2, 2008

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So have you ever had a day where you cannot remember anything for the life of you?

No? well then me either!

Actually I'm having one of those days today. I woke up this morning at the bright and wonderful awful hour of 6 am. To a screaming newborn goat. Normally I wouldn't have a problem with a screaming infant goat(because its well just a baby) this morning I had to go over a mental checklist just to remember the basics.

Bottle? check

Towel? Check

Baby? check

nipple that doesn't leak? no check

I don't know if my sudden forgetfulness has anything to do with my stress about what will be happening Wednesday(more on that then if I remember), or if its a lack of sleep, or because that little enemy of all womankind is currently visiting.

Now if you'll excuse me I am going back to bed in hopes of finding my memories, or at least having some nice yummy dreams.